Life can be cruel in a way that it forces you to learn lessons you never dreamed of having to deal with and never wanted to in the first place. But in general those lessons end up to be the most valuable ones in life. While the good moments stay with you in your memories, it’s the bad ones that really form the person you are today. They show us our mistakes and tell us what to change in the future. But no matter what happens in life, you should never ever stop following your dreams. Never give up hope, even when the situation seems hopeless. Although I know from experience sometimes this is very hard to achieve…

Nowadays it seems normal to hurt the other to feel better. We live in an egocentric world, where anyone else is seen as a possible threat. I would love to believe that there are still people around that really care about others, but it seems harder to do so every day. I feel alone in a world stranger and stranger to me as days pass by. I thought I met people who understood me lately, but they all show me their true face in the end. Even the nicest people betray me in the end, either with their actions or simply by not telling me the truth…

Telling the truth is tricky. I know you risk hurting the other, but for me there is nothing worse than telling lies. I prefer hearing the truth about things and try to deal with it over holding on to empty promises. Nothing more cruel than making someone believe there is nothing wrong when in fact you already made the decision there is. It is not fair for neither yourself and the other to keep suffering. The truth in a way is liberating. I know there are a lot of people out there that will disagree with me. And trust me, those are exactly the ones that will lie to the ones they care for. And who am I to try and change that? A lot of people believe we have to lie to protect the other from worse. That in fact lying to someone is a good thing. Well I’ve experienced it myself a lot of times and recently, and trust me it’s not. I prefer the ugly truth so I can deal with it and move on. Or at least try to.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that people have disappointed me lately. People I thought cared for me, wanted the same things in life. I guess I’ve been blind. I finally tried opening myself again and trusting people, and they threw that trust right back in my face. Why can’t people just be honest? I know it’s hard, but it’s worth it on the long run… But I guess life’s a bitch. So I give up… For now.